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Bipolar Effects On Family

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Each day I struggle with being the parent of a bipolar child.   It is often like walking on eggshells and trying not to break any.  You never know what will set them off and you never know how far to go.  It is like living in a war zone and you never know when you will be attacked.  While there are a lot of days like this there are a lot of days where my daughter is everything I have ever dreamed for my child to be.  She is kind, compassionate, full of life, has a desire to learn, is inquisitive, remains active, and loves all of the way!  I often wonder how she can possibly be both!  How can she be so nasty and hurtful and yet so sweet and thoughtful?  Welcome to the world of a bipolar child.

As the years progress I find myself worrying more about her and less about myself.  For a long time it was all about how I was going to make it through the day with this child.  It was about how I would face the school.  It was about how I could not deal with sending her on play dates.  It was about how I would survive this.  Now my sights are different.  I sit and I wonder how she is living though all of this.  How can it feel for her to lose it all of the time.  How is she able to deal with the fact that no other children want to play with her.  How does she smile each day with the burden that has been placed on HER!

The fact is that bipolar children have a terrible time.  As parents we often think more about ourselves and how this disability is impacting our family rather than how it is impacting our children.  I cannot imagine living the life that my daughter lives.  I worry about her, cry for her and strive to make her the best person she can be.  It is important that all of these kids have a bipolar kid connection where they can share their triumphs and failures.  A place where they know they will be understood and a place where they are accepted.  It is a difficult task but that is what we are hoping to create here in this small niche of the world.

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